In reality I go to therapy every other week to work on myself to?in-turn?work on my relationship with the girls.
I think I thought when coming in this situation it would all just flow. We would be this happy family of 4- the end. Not! When I think about all the steps and methods we have been through since day one to get to where we are today, it's a lot. I am also unsure I could ever go through it all again.
Olivia, Gracie, and I have this unspoken communication for our situation. The three of us get it. We know what we are to each other and that is all that matters. I am their Lindsay. They are My Olivia. My Gracie. Other than that I am unsure if any of us could actually put what our relationship is into words. I am usually caught off guard by their feelings for me. I am here everyday and it still?surprises?the hell out of me each and?every time?they bring home a picture or a poem for me.
My only expectation is they respect me. They don't have to love me or like me or want to be around me, but respect is important. I think we are all learning that.
I have spent the better part of my twenties trying to be a good wife, a good parent, and create a family unit. That?surprises?even me. I never thought I would ever be where I am- ever. I recently tried to get into the HBO series Girls and I just don't get it. I think it's because at 22 my life stopped being like theirs and I have spent the last 5 years thinking about myself last. It's interesting how that all just falls into place- like it was always supposed to be.
I also find it interesting when people feel the need to remind me that Olivia and Gracie have a Mother. Mostly because, I know that! Do people honestly think I don't know that? Just because these girls didn't fall out of my vag doesn't me I don't have the right to love them. Love them I do- with everything I have in me.
I think that is what?surprises?me the most, is my never ending love for them. I could really not like them in moments, but love always brings it full circle. I would do anything for them if I knew it would make their life better- anything.
Kelly has never once pushed the three of us together. He never pushed for more than what we have in us. It amazes me that he could just watch. He is always there for all three of us in just the right ways even when we are trying to all be against each other. I feel sorry for what the teen years brings him.
There was never a book that fit our situation. Believe me we looked. So when people ask me how it all works and to give advice to them- I don't really have any. Nor do I feel qualified to give any. We will always be a loving work in progress. You have to do what works for YOUR family. Not based around what a book says or what the world thinks. Honestly, with LOVE you can do anything. Thank God for love because we don't always like each other.
Source: http://www.unsweetenedcoco.com/2013/03/step-parenting.html
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